Most of the time we are good because we are living in comfortable lives but when desperate time struck you, you are compelled to go the wrong way. If you are well off, chances are tat you will try to be good but struggles you into a cynical person and that is where, the greatest test of morality will come or if you are willing enough to upheld your principles. This is something I am not proud to say that i am enduring now but this shall pass too, attitude might help me to survive. How will you overcome the suffering of life.By being better than the yesterday.
Fear of the unknown and unexplored territory or you hit a failure then you freeze. then your next option s to come back to a comfortable zone by any means. I am trying to reach there.
Success breeds success and failure breeds failure and its not necessary linear. I noticed that it is similar to joker's theory that one good day can lift you to heavens and one bad day will crush to the ground. The chance is such a big factor with a capability to change order into chaos. You can never be certain of unknown variables and good enough is the basic peak that you can achieve.
People defend their beliefs so they don't have to venture into the unknown which will bring anxiety and hyper stress ad they need to defend to keep their mental balance.
I write about myself so that my emotions don't get stuck in the past. In the future, you will feel like a part of your soul is stuck in the past and that makes it tough to move on. It also helps me to explain myself that what is my true persona or if i am lying to myself. Who i am depends upon how deep i dig and what entanglements have been lingering inside my mind.